Charlie Brooks had a ‘long-term negative effect’ on her body image
Much of my life has been plagued by a lack of confidence.
I was always afraid of not being good enough both professionally and personally. The feeling of not belonging completely has held me back and prevented me from fulfilling my potential.
get a portion of Janine Butcher of EastEnders In 1999, when I was 17, I was out of drama school. A lot of the anxiety I’ve felt throughout my career stems from that.
I have often wondered if I really deserved where I am.
Away from work, I doubted myself endlessly parent.
daughter kiki [with ex Tony Truman, 55] At 18, he is about to launch his acting career while studying theater at New York University.
Our relationship during her teenage years was tumultuous and I felt like I was failing as a mother.
I had the illusion that after raising this baby, we would do all these wonderful things together.
But what happened instead was this brutal rejection of Kiki screaming for her identity.
I also had a difficult relationship with my body and couldn’t walk past the mirror without mentally beating myself up.
I call myself a “disgusting, fat bitch” and feel nothing but hate.
Years ago I released a fitness video and went very small. It had a long-term negative effect on my body image.
All these swirling factors whipped up the perfect storm, and as I approached 40, I realized I had reached my breaking point. I needed to change something, but I didn’t know how to do it.
quit alcohol 2020 turned out to be a big part of a transformative few years.
I love to drink and I love to party, but I find myself choosing it over other things.
I call myself a “disgusting fat bitch” and feel nothing but hate.
throw away alcohol I was able to understand what was going on in my head without any distractions.
Over the past three years, I have come to know, trust and love myself. It gave me the courage to step outside my comfort zone and take on new adventures.
Her first big move was launching an online acting school, Iampro, with her brother Ben and sister-in-law Emma.
I have always been passionate about creating alternative routes for those looking to enter an elitist industry that screams for raw talent.
As a mentor, I’ve had to overcome my skepticism about doing things like Instagram The video, and I’ve learned to believe in myself – I have experiences to share that are valuable to those looking to get into acting.
I had never been in business before, but the more I participated, the more confident I became.
I have also learned to be kind to myself.
myself body It’s not perfect, but you have a baby and it’s great.
I also had the confidence to venture into a whole new field: sexual wellness.
Since lockdown, I have been working to create a unique female stimulation toy on the market.The courage to get one has been rewarded.
Another boost comes from being cast in the National Theater touring production of Neil Gaiman’s The Ocean At The End Of The Lane.
The role of Ursula came just as I was preparing to leave EastEnders.
Quitting booze allowed me to understand what was going on in my head without distractions.
I am grateful to work with such a great team. I spent all my career thinking that I would never be good enough to perform at The National, but now I feel I belong.
I don’t think it’s possible to completely eliminate self-doubt.
But there are days when I wake up in the morning and think, I don’t want to expose myself.” I have a toolbox of tricks to help me get through those moments. I will not allow them to bog me down or limit me.
A few years ago, I was dreading my 40s. I felt terrified and lost.
But now I feel like I’m in great love with myself.
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